From all the days that have passed, I realised a lot of things regarding my mission call. I was worried at first when I knew that I am going to serve as a missionary in Toronto, Canada. I am the only daughter in the family and my parents do not agree about my plan to serve a mission many years ago. My mother wanted me to study as high level as possible and earn a living. My dad did not say much but he told me that girls do not have to serve. But things have changed after my big brother went on a mission in London, England. They started to have confidence in me and allowed me to serve when I bought up that topic to them.
I struggled a lot when I am trying my best to do the right thing. When I planned to go to the temple in Manila Philippines, something bad happened. I could not go and I was so devastated. I lose faith. I lose my motivation to go on a mission. I was lazy. But the scripture answered my prayers. It was in D&C 31:11. It says: "Go your way whithersoever I will, and it shall be given you by the Comforter what you should do and whither you shall go". I realised that I need to continue with my dream to become a sister missionary. There might be trials, but I cannot lose hope. I will be guided by the Holy Spirit when I do the things the Lord has commanded. As in 1Nephi 3:7. "And it came to pass that I, Nephi, said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them".
I received my answer to my prayers before I have to desire to serve. The Lord asked me to do certain things before I apply for my mission and I did. I was so glad for the D&C 31:11 and kept me strong until I have done my part. My journey is not over and I realised that there are more for me to learn and to prepare myself.
I just came home from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. When I was in Kuala Lumpur, I realised that I am protected in my days. God sent me angels to protect me. God gave me fun and laughter to be happy. And I told myself, "God loves me the MOST!" It increased my testimony and I realised that I need to do the best I can to prepare myself before I officially become a sister missionary. I believe that there is a purpose why I was called to serve in Toronto, Canada. I believe that there are people there that are waiting for me. There are different kinds of missionaries out there and there must be reasons why we were called to serve in certain places.
I prayed for my mission call before I receive it. I prayed for my mission before I was called to serve. I prayed for the people that needs my help. After I received my mission call, I prayed for my mission president. I prayed for Toronto. And I will not stop praying for them even if I finished my missionary service. I will go forward with faith! As in D&C 4:3, Therefore, if ye have desire to serve God ye are called to the work". =)